Life as I know it...

Whelp..I realized I never talk about work on this thing so why not. I'm here right now...So I'll tell you what's going on.

Lance, my boss, is on a conference call right now. So I'm sitting in our front office with my ipod in listening to some, ever so faithful, Andy Davis. Wishing I had brown eyes, and I could be more spontaneous and drive to the beach, then laughing so I don't cry. I just went to target on my lunch break and bought some yummy archer farms trail mix and a bottle of water. The other guy I work with, Chris, he's not here today. I kinda miss him. He tore his ACL and had to have surgery this morning.

Let me tell you about Chris. Chris is like a "wise old man." Everyday I come in and tell him my problems, as if he were my psychiatrist or something. He's 30 and still single, and he goes to Fellowship Bible Church (gosh, it sounds like a personal add or something). He has an amazing gift of listening and speaking truth into people's lives. He truly is a blessing in my incredibly mundane life.

Now, Lance. Lance might be 32? and he's kinda the boss around here. He's a little guy and he's married and has a little girl, Sydney (like Bristow...I think she might grow up to be a special agent). He's cool, but we don't talk much.

Anyway, I just read erin's blog (very nice job by the way, kiddo) and it made me start reminiscing (just like everyone else) about old times. I miss everyone so much!

I had a breakdown this past weekend, just about life. I know I told some of you I might be going back to school to get my masters. Well, I'm not. Ever since I thought about it I think I started getting depressed bc it meant I was giving up on my dreams and giving up on the calling the Lord has put on my life. I was beginning to believe the lies that God wasn't faithful or trustworthy. The truth is He is! I could go back to school and be a teacher for the rest of my life and be "fine." but who wants to live a life that's just "fine."?!?! NOT ME!!! We only live once...and for me...that means walking down the straight and narrow and trusting Him when my way seems lost..all along knowing that He knows the way home and He will get me there! The Lord's story is SO BIG and all I want is to fufill my tiny little role. I want to be so hard core after Him that it means forsaking everything else just to follow Him.

SO...what that looks like for the future and on a day to day basis...you'll need to call me on that one.

P&L

-leland.